I felt
overwhelmed for the initial few moments after my birth,
But sooner
realized, I was in intensive care hooked-up to those weird wires and monitors
all around.
I wasn't
really able to open my eyes completely,
I was crying
lustily, my head being slightly bruised during the birth.
I still needed
a long deep sleep to recover from that extra physical strain.
While inside, I
had all my needs met from my host,
Warmth and
food, And the comfort from the cushioning fluid surrounding me.
Now a separate
being I am.
Yet I expected
my host to soothe my body by holding me skin-to-skin,
And embrace me
in a warm cuddle.
The host did
it for me, generously again!!!
I immensely enjoyed being held on her chest for the first time, where I could hear and
feel her heartbeat.
I stared into
her eyes, trying to memorize her face.
She was
absolutely entranced!
I tried
turning my head towards her while she brushed my fragile cheeks,
I tried
grasping her thumb when she placed me in her lovely palms,
I kept staring
into her eyes again.
The attachment
slowly was getting strengthened by mutual gaze.
I do not
understand anything about this world,
But I knew she
was most important for I realized she was a safe base for me.
I do not
understand the meaning of "I love you”, but my actions spoke far louder
than words.
Those
screaming fits meant I did love her and trusted her deeply.
I tried moving
away from her to explore the world,
But I did
return for her incredible attachment and comfort which always left me in an emotional
whirlwind.
Adapting to
this new world full of unfamiliar sounds and sensations,
I calmly took
it all in for I knew my senses needed a lot of fine tuning...
Of
all the joys that lighten suffering earth, what joy is welcomed like a newborn
child?
-Dorothy
Nolte
